Part of the Process & Sweet Lily

Well, our final homestudy visit got cancelled for Friday and rescheduled for next Tuesday. I was kind of bummed...but, in the meantime, I have had time to complete the last details of paperwork and have been working on the 8 hour Hague training modules. I had been dreading that so much..maybe I am just a weirdo, but it has been SO good to me. I cried my eyes out tonight while I was going through it. I guess it was the videos--videos always get me---they have videos of families that have adopted from about 5 different countries and they all share their experiences on different aspects of the adoption process and, I don't know, I was just overwhelmed with emotion as I listened. I honestly feel like it is an eternity away and it is hard to imagine us in their positions, I guess, being done with the whole tedious process. I just feel so unsettled and with all that is going on in Haiti, and all the directions I am currently pulled in.....my heart is in turmoil and overloaded and I feel like my full attention hasn't been on China and our process since the earthquake.....My prayer has been, Lord, just please lead us to our child, wherever they are....Don't mishear me. I am not saying I don't think we should go to China...I am NOT saying that. I just feel like a big question mark has been thrown into the equation because I don't know where Calvin is and I am UPSET... I just want to know that he is ok....like I said before....we feel like God brought us to the point we are at for a reason and we are going to continue on that path until it is obvious we should do otherwise. I feel like that is the right thing. On a very bright and lighter note...I have been really blessed this week to be able to see friends of ours go to China and get their daughter, Lily....isn't she BEAUTIFUL......they have had her about 24 hours so far, and are still in China!! How exciting!!! It has been awesome to be able to read about their daily happenings while they are there through their blog...

when I see sweet little faces like this, it makes me feel like, yes, one day it IS going to be ok....


Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto your own understanding. In ALL thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths...

Heading to bed early tonight:)